47 years old, 2 daughters in college, a son graduating from high school in about 2 weeks and I'm pregnant. It IS true that I'm not unaccustomed to being the mother of young people...as there are 6 more children here at home ranging from 16 to 4 years old but I thought with all the miscarriages and strange, sputtering things happening with my body that my child bearing years were, indeed, over.
Mary the mother of Jesus had a story too. Hers presented from the other end of the pendulum swing though. She was young (some say VERY young) she was unmarried, She had never been with a man.
To be honest, that last part I feel like I share in common with her. Our home was in crisis mode with a son, that kept THIS husband and wife in our own worlds, just trying to survive. Yet with no ability to recollect a time when we didn't drag our selves to bed just to find the escape of sleep before the next hard day began, somehow God saw fit to give us a new little life! (at least for now)
I am tired and old. And yet, this new life! I have had to reach deep drink from the Mountain Spring during this crisis with son, And He has been oh, so faithful! He has met me repeatedly in my need. John Piper writes that God IS the kind of God who is pleased by the one thing I have to offer: Thirst! A sinner delights God when we depend on His strength!
Oh! I am proud and selfish. Yet in this life-game of chess God has been maneuvering and now has me in glorious check-mate! I am not comfortable with this crying "Uncle"-stuff! Yet where was I going with my life when all was calm?
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